The BEAUTIFUL side of cancer

CANCER. Now there's a word no one expects to hear, a diagnosis no one wants to have. It comes along with all sorts of fear, sadness, pain, uncertainty (just to name a few common emotions). Though I certainly don't enjoy hearing that word with my name attached, I have discovered that there really is a beautiful side of cancer.

Having this "unintended adventure" has allowed me to experience more love, care, compassion, sweetness and generosity than I have ever experienced in my life. I have been touched by beautiful words sent to me via email, cards, comments, offers of help. If I hadn't embarked on this adventure, I don't think I would ever have known how much love is in the hearts of people in my life. I have been the recipient of some beautiful gifts: A beautiful quilt (pictured in another post), a fun dress that I had admired and not purchased, yummy dinners, massages, music, a care package from friends in San Diego. As soon as the box was opened, pure fun, laughter, love and delight came pouring out with dozens of items. It was filled with very practical items (like soup and toothpaste) and fun things (like a teddy bear and these slippers).

Prayers, healing energy and positive thoughts have made such a difference. I know the chemo is working. The tumors have to be shrinking. For the past week I've felt "nearly" normal. I've been able to do yard work, hike up (the small saddle) on our Lookout Mountain, work (1/2 time), enjoy company and preparing for our upcoming family vacation (and have been off pain pills). I am truly grateful for the beautiful collective energy surrounding and uplifting me. Thank you all.

If I hadn't embarked on this adventure, I wouldn't have met all the beautiful people at MD Anderson. Nurses there give such skilled care with grace and compassion. I know they must all have been hand-picked from "the cream of the crop". Receptionists, aides, volunteers are all such friendly, helpful and welcoming faces. My physician is perfect for me. She is very knowledgeable and compassionate. She listens. She spends whatever time is needed to answer all questions and makes me feel like I'm the only patient she has to see.

All these things have helped me see the beautiful side of cancer. It's the only side I'm choosing to see...I live in gratitude.